As my post Monday night testified (Seriously...) despite my attempts on Sunday to put all this "orphan nonsense" away in a tidy little corner of my comfortable suburban existence, handsome hubby and near-perfect children, my dear Jesus hit me over the head with spiritual 2 x 4's all day on Monday...
through blogs (A Perfect Lily; All These Reasons; Our Road to Adoption; HE adopted me first; It's almost Naptime, Running the Race, and most importantly Reece's Rainbow...
through scripture (Luke 12: 13-34, also verse 48 "When much has been given a man, much will be required of him. More will be asked of a man to whom more has been entrusted.)...
through the Saint of the Day, Saint Anthony the Abbott...
through a phone call with my mom...
through my children....
through the books RADICAL by David Platt (Catholics should just skip Chapter 7, but the rest of the book ROCKS!) and CRAZY LOVE by Francis Chan....
through prayer....
I could not sleep. I had to get to the computer after midnight (a modern-day Samuel moment) and document what He was telling me. I got it all out in that post. And then I slept.
And Tuesday was a normal day full of too much laundry and not enough help cleaning up the dinner table and too much TV and electronics, and a nasty little voice whispered, "see...you won't be able to do this...last night did not mean anything...forget about it...go watch some TV, you deserve it...."
No.
NO.
I went upstairs to my computer and did some work (that I have been procrastinating getting done) as a discipline and to show that I meant what I said on Sunday. I WILL fulfill my duties to the best of my ability. I WILL take fabulous physical and emotional care of my hubby and children. I WILL do my income-producing work even when I do not "feel" like it....
for now my immediate goal is to pay off a big debt by Feb. 28....and keep reading and researching....and soon (how soon Lord? let me know when and how to do this!!) present a plan to my dear hubby for how we can afford to rescue a child or two from a horrific existence...and push our family out of its suburban comfort zone....and show what being a Christian really means....and save our souls in the loving.
Living for the Lord - I see that God has planted a seed in your heart! Keep praying girl AND pray for your hubs, pray fervently! My hubs came around to several adoptions - just from prayer. I remember him using all the "rational" reasons why we couldn't add another child (don't get me wrong, there are some). I remember simply praying for his change of heart. Once when I asked him later "What made you change your mind about adopting?" he said "it was spiritual." Teehee teehee...later I confessed what I had done. And I wasn't one bit sorry, and he wasn't either...
ReplyDeleteYay Dayna! Thanks so much for the encouragement!! It is good to hear about other women using "stealth spirituality" (hee hee) to soften their hubby's heart...
ReplyDeleteKeep me in your prayers! I will be hitting my knees (and sneaking off to Adoration) a lot these next few weeks!!